Waiting on the Lord

Sometimes I get discouraged. I generally have a positive outlook on things & am excited about my interests; following the Lord, physical fitness, being a wife & mom, etc. However it's hard to maintain a certain level of excitement about those things all of the time. I came crashing down hard last night/this morning. I begin to wonder what am I doing? I start feeling like I don't know anything or that I have so far to go to get where I want to go. I just want to meet my goals TODAY! I want what I want & I want it now! lol That is the time when I turn to the Lord.

There was a segment on the radio yesterday where they host & the guest were talking about using your passions & talents that God gave you to fulfill your purpose in life. (quickly paraphrasing b/c I don't remember the exact terms that were used). Anyways, they were talking about those times when you are in a waiting period, you need to draw near to God & use that time to build yourself up in the Lord. Those waiting periods are tough, that's where I feel like I am today. Sure I have passion & drive to meet my goals, but I sure need training. I am trying to be patient as I look for ways to learn more & get hands on experience that are close & relatively inexpensive. Let me tell you, it's rough!! But I am going to use this opportunity to draw close to the Lord, strengthen my relationship with Him  & wait on His timing for training & experience.

I know that I am on the right path. I prayed about it a LOT last fall & had it confirmed over & over again. I felt that I needed to take the plunge & start a workout group at church, which was again, something I prayed over for MONTHS & then had it confirmed again & again. I am thankful that God was patient with me when I kept asking for confirmation! LOL So anyways, it has begun again & now I am wondering what next? Where do I go from here? I am a complete novice at this & I would like to feel a like I have some knowledge to bring to the table. Again, the passion is there, but I don't have any real training or experience. I am just glad that God uses the willing & that the rest is in His hands.

So this morning I was feeling really bad about myself. Workout group is tonight & I have to prepare for it. I am excited for it & I love getting together with women & encouraging them towards getting physically fit. I am thankful that our church allows us to meet in their building & that they see it as a good thing for us to put a small focus on physical fitness. Honestly, that is all God's doing :) Anyways, I was praying about it & thinking about what I had heard on the radio yesterday. God would have to guide me in the next steps of getting certified or taking classes, whatever His plans are for me. Then I found it!! I found a fitness conference in Chicago, in March, one that is affordable!! I really can't wait & hope that we can swing it financially, but it isn't as expensive as some other things I've wanted to do...so it's very likely I can go! I am excited that this may be the first steps in getting training, knowledge & connecting with other people. Please pray that this happens for me!